Sorry I haven't posted in a while... Here's the update

Ok.... I know that I haven't posted in a while and its because I was in Graeagle, CA and had no internet connection. Now I am in Nevada and chillaxing and having a very relaxing time. Trying to raise money to get back to Arizona by Friday because it's a busy day. Gotta take my little brother down to the recruiting office so that he can enlist in the Army. Go Nick you are awesome and going to love the Army. I can't believe he's following my footsteps. Only he wants to be a ranger which will be awesome cause now when i use my combatives training on him he can fight back. This will be so much fun...

Ok what else... Oh, so, I've been having really bad stomach pains for the past couple days and Luke has been worrying because he thinks i need to have my appendix removed... Psssh... what does he know... even though his dad is a doctor and he in an EMT.... But I don't want to go to the hospital... and my appendix is fine where it is. I keep telling him that even though the pain is on my complete lower left quadrant that it is not rebounding on the right side and I am able to walk upright now so obviously I'm getting better and i won't have to get my appendix removed. But of course he is worried about my appendix rupturing and poisonous bodily fluids invading my abdominal cavity but still. I'm getting better. So obviously i just pulled a muscle or something and am going to be fine... Another thing is that HELLO I was in the Army. We don't go to hospitals. We rub dirt in it, drink some water and drive on. (although for about a day it hurt said lower left quadrant to drink of consume any kind of liquid or nourishment...)

Other than that there is nothing else to report. Luke and I have not fought since I got here. He's been working at his brother's bar to raise money for our fabulously long drive home. Still no exact date on WHEN we will be back but I'm hoping it's soon cause I'm starting to get bored here. Not knowing anyone or where anything is.... It will be nice to go home and be able to see my family and hang out with my friends in the Gilbert area as well as introduce them to luke so that we all can hang out. It will be so much fun...

I'll let you guys know when we will be home as soon as I do. Enjoy the rest of your evenings... :-)

Today was... Interesting

Today was a very interesting day to say the least. I woke up in pain, as usual lately. I gathered my things from around my mother's house. I swam with my brother. Then I went and picked up my mom from work. I headed down to the Gilbert house at about 8pm and started packing. Now, here's where it gets interesting, the whole entire reason i NEEDED to go to the gilbert house was for Connor's car seat. I went down there packed all my baggage for the NV trip, I also got some of Connor's belongings, BUT I forgot the car seat. Oh yes, I, Stephanie P. Albrecht, Forgot the one thing I really needed to get from the Gilbert house. So, now, I will have to wake up in about 5 hours to take my aunt to school, run back down to the gilbert house to get the car seat, stop at Walmart to pick up some last minute travel needs, come back to Phoenix to get my nails done. Then, I have to go pick up my aunt up from school when she is done, take her home, go buy oil for the van and fill the gas take and finally start the 1.5-2 hour drive to prescott. But it is ok, because I will be getting to Prescott early to enjoy a simple lunch with some friends before picking connor up at 4pm and heading back down to Phoenix. Boy, I really have a busy day tomorrow. Such is the life of a single mother and former soldier. I guess that is something that the Army imbedded into my brain... HURRY UP! and wait... HURRY UP!! and wait... HURRY UP!!! and wait... (for those of you that have seen the power thirst youtube videos, there you go. For those of you who haven't, I find it quite funny.) Oh man, I had chilly cheese dogs for dinner and although it was VERY delicious, it is coming back to destroy me via heart burn. I have only had heart burn once before in my life and that was when my ego was prego with my son... WOW I forgot how badly it hurts and guess who has two thumbs and NO tums.... THIS CHICK! Oh yes... this has to be some sort of torture either in some third world country or in one of the circles of hell because THIS IS SOOOOOOOO PAINFUL! Now I know what Luke goes through on a daily basis... poor thing... I'll have to bring some prilosec and tums for him... even though it is MY birthday.... I guess i'm just a loving girlfriend like that...

Ok, I am exhausted. I really am. It is shocking considering that I haven't been tired all week. But tonight (or this morning. However you want to look at it.) I am actually, genuinely tired. I think that i will  adjourn for the night... Iron Chef is on so i think i will fall asleep to the sound of food cooking. Should make for some interesting dreams. Goodnight, Cyber Space. Parting is such sweet sorrow. But sleep is much needed.

Sorry Sorry Sorry....

Hey followers sorry i didn't post last night. I had something all written up but the sign kinda went down by the time I went to publish the posting the sight went down. IT's ok though cause I really didn't have much to say... Yesterday was nothing special. Talk to you guys tonight!

Oh The Pain! Oh The Humanity! Oh Momma's Home Cooking....

Today I had my hip injection and let me just say I never ever ever EVER want to do that again.

I spent an hour in the VA parking lot trying to find a parking space. The parking space was in the VERY back of the parking lot and it is quite a long walk when it's 115 degrees outside with a bum hip. I finally get into the office and find the room. They tried to tell me that I needed to get blood drawn again. I told them that I had gotten it done yesterday so at least i didn't have to do that again. I get into the room and I lay down on the tab while the nurse lady got everything ready. When the doctor came in he didn't seem to nice at all. That is not an understatement. His bed side manner would piss off the devil. I put up with it though because i figured the procedure would help. He started by sticking me with Lidocaine which hurt A LOT then it went, kind of, numb. Then he stuck me with another needle in my hip and took an x-ray to make sure it was in the correct spot... Guess what? It wasn't. It took him 3 more times to get it right and it hurt every single time. i was clinching the bed by my head and screaming it hurt so f-ing bad even with the Lidocaine! I suffered through it and then hobbled my broken ass back to my car and drove home.... I haven't been able to walk around since. I feel like an old person who's lost their walker... My hip hurts so unbelievably bad that now it isn't just the front of my hip that hurts but all the way around to the back of my hip right into my butt. My mom said that after the first day it will feel better. But I am having a hard time believing that. I really hope she's right though. I can't afford to go through this pain again. Because of it I can't work out... I can't even swim without it hurting... I need to work out. This is not an option. I am getting rid of my kangaroo pouch one way or another and this hip thing is not helping the cause.

Other than that, I still get connor this weekend. I have my plane ticket to NV for monday. I have even talked with my ex about getting connor for my great grandma Mary's birthday party the weekend of 13Aug. And Luke said he would be coming with me too.

After tomorrow, I will have no more appointments for the week. I will be packing for NV on Thursday. I just wish the rest of the week would hurry along... Friday-Sunday can go slow, I don't want to fast forward through my time with Connor of course. Good thing I will be leaving first thing Monday morning and it is only a 3 hour plane ride. Because I am feeling totally impatient.

Now I smell my momma's cooking so I've said all I need to say. I'm starving and it smells amazing so this concludes my nightly posting. I've covered the 'oh the pain' part, the 'oh the humanity' part and now I have successfully covered the 'oh momma's home cooking' part... time to enjoy

The Good, The Bad, And The Nerve Racking

I am staying at my mother's house for the week. I had blood drawn today as pre-procedure to my appointment tomorrow. What is the appointment you might ask? Well, the medical professionals and the VA Hospital are going to stick two gigantic needles into my left hip joint. Why? Because apparently the cartilage and tendon things in my hip aren't functioning properly. So what they are going to do is inject me with a steroid and a long lasting anesthetic. They say that the steroid will help my hip to rebuild what it can and to take away the pain and the anesthetic will give the steroid time to work. Honestly, I have my doubts. I have had steroid injections in my hip and knee before and they worked for about 2 weeks. The doctor's say that if this doesn't work, the next stop is surgery. I will be 22 years old on saturday. 22 years old and I might need hip surgery. What if this doesn't work? What if I do need surgery? What if the surgery doesn't work? If it doesn't work I will never be able to play on the playground with my son. I can not afford to be a 22 year old cripple. I'm not going to lie, the Army taught me to be strong, and I'm not scared of much. But I am afraid of this. I am so afraid that I.... I don't even know how to explain this fear.

I'm told that I should change the topic. So change the topic I shall. I'm flying to Reno, NV. on the fourth. I am spending 2 weeks there. I'm not exactly sure what I will be doing most of the time. I know that there is going to be a fourth of July party at Luke's parents lake cabin and that at some point during the trip I am going to Friday night Smackdown. But other than that I am not sure. At least I will be spending it with luke.

On Friday, I am picking Connor up in Prescott. I get him for my birthday at least. This will be my first birthday since being in the military. All of my so called friends are too busy, they say, or they are out of state. Funny, even though I'm not in the Army anymore, I still get an Army birthday. The ones i care about most aren't in the same state as me and are too busy to visit. Once again, My mother is the only person who pulls through for me. Although, I should give my grandmother and grandfather some props. She did tell me that she is sending me a card and she is paying for my plane ticket. I could never say anything ill about my grandparents. They have always been there for me and all of the other grandchildren. I owe everything to them, and for as long as i live i will try to pay them back even though they tell me that I don't have to... My step sister invited me to Pine Top with her and the rest of the family. I give them and A for effort.

At the end of the day I guess i should be thankful for what little things I have. However small, however meaningless they may seem, there are probably others with much much less than I. So, I will end this posting... Because I really have nothing else to talk about at the moment. And for once I will not end this posting with my posting title. I will simple end with....

To Be Continued.......

Happy Early Birthday, My Love...... NOT

Today I had a talk with Luke. He was Supposed to be on his way home last night WHICH IS EXACTLY WHAT HE FUCKING TOLD ME!!! And before that he was supposed to be home in time for my party last night... Guess what? No show. I spent Half the night Either pissed off or crying because he was being a dick and a half. Definitely not the way to spent a party at all. I then learn today that he will not be coming home until after my 2 week stay in Reno, NV. which I leave on the 4th for reno.... So guess what Luke gets to do.... He gets to miss my goddamn birthday on the 2nd. He gets to NOT take my to my appointment for my hip and back this week and also gets to party and get free shit in Reno because his brother runs a high class bar/restaurant there.... Oh but he misses me like crazy.... but doesn't call, or txt, or ANYTHING. I'm always the one initiating the fucking conversation and I'm sorry if my swearing offends any readers but THEY ARE JUST WORDS TO EMPHASIZE THE LEVEL OF ANGERY AND HATRED I AM FEELING RIGHT NOW WHICH IS WHY THIS SENTENCE IS IN CAPITALS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I literally feel a burning fire in my chest and feel that breaking stuff would make me feel better. But alas, I will not. 1: Because I have a lot of expensive stuff in my house that I don't want to have to replace and 2: because I feel that right now, Luke isn't worth my goddamn time. If he can't pick up the phone and call me and wants to make excuses to stay in Reno instead of telling me "hey honey, I'm going to stay in reno for a month and a half. But I will fly you out here for the fourth of July." Then i don't want to fucking talk to him EITHER (P.S. the capitals mean i'm yelling really really loud.... Just, not OUT loud...)

He knew i needed him here for my appointment and yes they are both appointments to determine if I need surgery. But he jimmied his way out of those... AFTER he has been telling me for the past WEEK "Yes dear i'm leaving tomorrow. Oh no baby i don't feel good i'll leave tomorrow. THey found something else wrong with my car I'll leave tomorrow." What he should have said before he left was "Hey babe, I'm going to Reno. I'm going to see my son for a week. Then i'm going to make up excuses not to come back for a extra month. And by the way, I'm gonna leave you hanging so you'll have to be depressed at your house warming party (which out of all of my friends that i invited the only person that showed up was my mom and stepdad.) you're going to have to scramble to find a ride to your surgery appointments and to pick up your son. I'm also going to miss your 22nd birthday because, well, because even though i love you, I'm not going to try to hard to get home to you. I'm actually not going to call you to much to let you know that i'm safe and thinking about you. I'm not going to text you either. Instead I'm going to say that i'm not getting them every time i actually do talk to you and when i do text i wont answer your questions about what i'm doing or when i will be home. Instead, i will only tell you that i am really sorry , even though i'm not, and tell you that i love you with all of my heart. Because if i say those 2 things then you will automatically forgive me for missing all this important stuff that i said i will be there for because your mind is so simplistic that you wont know what else to do."
Well, GUESS WHAT! I am hating you with all the fires and hideous passions of HELL!!! Why? BECAUSE YOU ARE MY FUCKING BOYFRIEND AND SHOULD DO WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU SAY YOU ARE GOING TO DO!!! Miss me a lot do you? YEAH FUCKING RIGHT. I swear to the gods that you will feel my pain. One way or another, you WILL feel my pain. And you know what. I'll make you feel said pain near YOUR next birthday. That way i can do, pretty much, the exact same thing you are doing to me... Happy Early Birthday, My love..... NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Another Day.... Not Another Dollar...

What can I say about today? Well, I did yard work all day. I passed out from the heat which is ALWAYS awesome... NOT. Woke up laying in a gopher hole which is even more awesome.... After all of that i came inside and cleaned my house for our house warming party tomorrow.

I also got a text message from my super awesome boyfriend... He told me that we have FRONT ROW RING SIDE SEATS, let me say that again, FRONT ROW RING SIDE SEATS to go to Smackdown in Reno, NV in July. Needless to say, he is back on my good side. OH AND he got us backstage V.I.P. passes with free drinks all night. Oh hell yea I get to meet Randy Orton!!!!!!!! I am so freaking excited that I think I might explode. But through all of the good and awesome news I get bad news. Luke went to pick up his car today so he could come back home and found out that his car was delayed one more day because he has a broke piston ring. Yes yes I am upset. I actually almost started crying. My eyes teared up and everything. But I didn't cause big girls don't cry.... But they almost do. ha ha ha. He said he would be home in time for the party but i wanted him home one week ago.

And so yes it was another day in paradise. Another day but not another dollar....