I am staying at my mother's house for the week. I had blood drawn today as pre-procedure to my appointment tomorrow. What is the appointment you might ask? Well, the medical professionals and the VA Hospital are going to stick two gigantic needles into my left hip joint. Why? Because apparently the cartilage and tendon things in my hip aren't functioning properly. So what they are going to do is inject me with a steroid and a long lasting anesthetic. They say that the steroid will help my hip to rebuild what it can and to take away the pain and the anesthetic will give the steroid time to work. Honestly, I have my doubts. I have had steroid injections in my hip and knee before and they worked for about 2 weeks. The doctor's say that if this doesn't work, the next stop is surgery. I will be 22 years old on saturday. 22 years old and I might need hip surgery. What if this doesn't work? What if I do need surgery? What if the surgery doesn't work? If it doesn't work I will never be able to play on the playground with my son. I can not afford to be a 22 year old cripple. I'm not going to lie, the Army taught me to be strong, and I'm not scared of much. But I am afraid of this. I am so afraid that I.... I don't even know how to explain this fear.
I'm told that I should change the topic. So change the topic I shall. I'm flying to Reno, NV. on the fourth. I am spending 2 weeks there. I'm not exactly sure what I will be doing most of the time. I know that there is going to be a fourth of July party at Luke's parents lake cabin and that at some point during the trip I am going to Friday night Smackdown. But other than that I am not sure. At least I will be spending it with luke.
On Friday, I am picking Connor up in Prescott. I get him for my birthday at least. This will be my first birthday since being in the military. All of my so called friends are too busy, they say, or they are out of state. Funny, even though I'm not in the Army anymore, I still get an Army birthday. The ones i care about most aren't in the same state as me and are too busy to visit. Once again, My mother is the only person who pulls through for me. Although, I should give my grandmother and grandfather some props. She did tell me that she is sending me a card and she is paying for my plane ticket. I could never say anything ill about my grandparents. They have always been there for me and all of the other grandchildren. I owe everything to them, and for as long as i live i will try to pay them back even though they tell me that I don't have to... My step sister invited me to Pine Top with her and the rest of the family. I give them and A for effort.
At the end of the day I guess i should be thankful for what little things I have. However small, however meaningless they may seem, there are probably others with much much less than I. So, I will end this posting... Because I really have nothing else to talk about at the moment. And for once I will not end this posting with my posting title. I will simple end with....
To Be Continued.......
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